Risk

Human nature, the prefer things that make them happy, gives them joy and change their past painful life into a beautiful one. They prefer something that brightens up their darkness, gives them hope, gives them faith. All these things are just needs and wants in life where actually, in the beginning, they can give themselves those without having given by others, it aall depends on us, the way we think, the way we act, the way we treat people actually and how we want people to treat us back. If we have our mindset on the people that we only allow to be part of us, only then would we find happiness in ourselves because we surround ourselves with people that makes us feel confortable having around us.

But eventhough sometimes we might already have something that makes us happy in life but some how we just tend to neglect it because of what we already have, but what we already have might not make us happy, but because we have been striving all our life for it, working hard for it, and now since we've alreaady got it, we just dont want to lose all our hardwork even if it means killing us. We are too lazy to start all over again, worry that the new opportunity would be worse, the fear of not trying, the fear of risking something totally different than what we already have is what blind us from what actually makes us happy and might actually be better than what we already have.

How then would we change the mind set of these kind of people? would it be that we have to show them everything that they can gain out of it if theý throw away their past and try something new that they were afraid of?. But, if we show them all that they can gain from it, wouldnt it be boring then? wouldnt they take foregranted of it even more as they expect things to work out the way it is in the end without working hard for it?. It is like putting in a cheat code for a game, knowing all the ways to get out of traps, getting everything that we have to work hard for to get by going through obstacles.Wouldnt that defeats the whole purpose of learning something new, trying new things and risking to see what sells and what doesnt, what is worth and what is not.

What Makes Us

What makes a person who they are? could it be parents? or could it be friends? some people say is the friends you mix with but certain people tend to unfriend a certain group, so what could be the cause of that? parental teaching and guidance since small? if so, then why do parents say choose your friends wisely when in the beginning, it could just be because of your parents teaching that make your choises of friends specific to the way you were brought up, which is why you have a selected criteria for people to be your friends. Then can we still say that parents are the people that makes a person who they are right now? or could it just be self development and change of mind set as age takes place that makes us who we are?. But still people always say that the base of everything is the most important, so does it still goes back to the parents?

Like for example, our favourite song maybe modern and whats in trend, as new songs are produced we tend to prefer less of the past, but we stil kick to the beat of old school 80's and 90's songs that we always hear at home with our parents before we were opened up to the music of the generation. Then, it would be because of the way life rotates around us and we tend to follow what's in trend during that period of time we are in. So, are we still aligined to the way our parents brought us up? think about it, we may be different caused by the trend that is going on around us, new ideas pops up, but what if that modern age idea crumbles down, won't we always go back to the base of everything from where we try to change and make things new? which is back to basics/old school.

So if in the end, something happens to us during our steps to allign to the trend of the new and modern era, will we still fall back to our parents teaching? because of that, it might be the reason we are still standing at the moment reading this. Their teaching seems to be like a survival kit when we're in need, being lost in the jungle of lions and wolfs that preys on the most bottom of the food chart, who would provide us with the basics of survival other than them if it was our first time out into the real world of "kill or be killed". At the end of the day home is where we go back too, from where we are brought up, our childhood memories, our base of every teaching in life, no matter how long we've moved out and how much we have changed, home will never be apart because it is always in our heart, being the base of everything that we plan or choose to be when growing up. It is also our escape from everything out there, our comfort zone, our place of serenity to forget about everything else that makes us the hunter of the wild, dodging bullets and taking in some.

Will we ever find love in a modern world like this? Could it be that times we are busy on the phone, the love of our life could have just walk us by, or maybe sitting right in front of us, but the moment we look up her friend came and sat in front of her, blocking your one and only chance to see her beautiful face and give a smile which might lead to a conversation of a simple "hi".

Could it be that the love of our life is right in front of us and has always been there for us, but we were blinded by the networking that we have access to chat with other girls overseas which is not the one. Could it be that with technology allowing us to access pictures of beautiful girls around the world; it has blinded us with expectations of how our spouse is supposed to look like, dress like and behave like. Could it be that with technology, instead of being busy building ourselves to be a better person, we are busy searching online the right one for us which is physically attractive that suits our criteria.

Love at these moments could just be a mere illusions, like as if we’re stuck in the desert, drying up our soul, we start cracking and allow everything to pass through as we thirst for water because then everything around us becomes an illusion of water and what we need to survive or feel alive to be able to live on but without knowing, no matter how much we take it in, it doesn’t quench our thirst, it doesn’t heal our cracks, it doesn’t make our dull life flourish and grow but instead, worse, with left over dried up plants, dead animals that left behind their bones as memories of what used to be our illusion of happiness and a dry atmosphere that every time you try to breathe, it dries up your throat and you choke on it, making you feel like killing yourself, hoping this would end your misery quickly so you won’t bare this pain no more.

What if you manage to see pass through it, what if your manage to wake up and tell yourself that whatever you are seeing is false, that your mind is letting your eyes see what your mind wants to see, at that point of time, the time used on mere illusions, could be used to move on ahead till you find a better side of the desert before your energy runs out, till you find a better side of people, till you find hope of what seems to be long gone.

The Past and Future of Jazz

I was sitting at a café while listening to my music and going through facebook when I realize nothing much in life has actually changed. The music I’m listening too at the moment is blues and jazz, then it hit me, could it be when a jazz masterpiece was created; the songwriter was having his usual regular coffee at a café, in the open, looking out in the blue skies above his head wondering how would it feel like to have such freedom like the birds flying around, same as how his mind wonders freely into the world of symphony and music notes, whereby each notes flies around but instead of the sounds of flapping wings and birds chirping, it was the sound of notes from musical instruments arranging themselves into lines to create a melody.

Why I say such is because of the sounds I hear around me within the past hour, the sound of cars passing by, click-clacks of high heels and leather shoes during the lunch time of office hours, the sound and coffee machine steaming the milk and brewing coffee, along with the smell of coffee, the bitterness and sweetness that fills up your inner emotion to give it the extra expression for people to be able to feel how I feel right at this moment. The only thing that has changed is the looks of how a coffee machine looks like in the past and now, the songs they play and the people you see. People that you could see in the past might be wearing old scarfs, tall hats and haggard coats, smoking on their cigars and puffing on pipes, ladies wearing full covered dress with decency and a poise posture, while on the streets you see beggars, milk truck carrying old glass bottled milk, children running around on the streets chasing one another.

But now in the future, everyone is attached to their technology, no one talks; the atmosphere is filled with songs instead of voices, girls wearing less cloth on their body to make it more revealing and for guys that get attracted they forget the reason why they came to the café and end up looking at their legs every time they cross their legs to change the position of sitting. We don’t see kids running around anymore because it is dangerous now with kidnappings and due to the huge amount of cars running around the streets but instead they are quietly sitted on the couch with their phones stuck to their hand.

Could it be because of that, we can’t find good jazz in this world anymore? We hardly hear good old school jazz in this age, everything is mostly digitalized and the fear of future music will be fully digital roams my mind and got me thinking, “will an instrumental musician in the future be supported by future generations?”, “will jazz and blue die and be replaced by techno and RnB killing good old old school songs” and “melody that was supposed to ease our mind and give us relaxation, will it end up corrupting minds with lyrics that doesn’t measure up to life and reality but instead hallucination of dreams and fame, anger and hatred, war and deaths”. Will jazz ever be able to find its way through the hearts of the future generations?.

Realization

When your life is at its peak of thrill, relaxation and a good life style, the moment that every problem seems to be easily solved with the help of everything you have in store, suddenly, shit happens, the one thing that man always fail to see it coming, to even enjoy life a little bit more, then one day sit down and start to think about it, and before you have all that time in the world, everything you’ve worked for, everything that you struggled for, came crashing down on you like loosed lego bricks, your whole faith goes down with it, the effort of picking it back up and building it fades away, your mind wonders around like a compass with no north pole. Life at that moment seems lost.

It all started when parents became the most important part of your life, nothing can go wrong if you kept listening to their advice as they are always right, always the most knowledgeable one, and always the guidance in troubled times. This is how some of us, got into trouble with our lives, not living it to the fullest, living it the old school as your parents had once grown up with as a child, not trying new things but always stick to the things that you feel most suited to your comfort zone. With all this you might start to feel depressed as you may not fit in to the modern life style, not being able or having the courage to fit in with new friends as you feel backtracked of all the modern life style and environment that seems so new to you.

Space and time is what you need away from all things that is within your comfort zone, the more you get out, the more you experience, the more you explore, the more you see, the more you try, the more you learn. People tend to get more cooped up these days with technology, work, money and status. What you drive, where you stay, even what u can afford to eat seems to reflect on who you are instead of your real personality. You then create a whole new person of yourself just so you can fit in, able to find a place to slide into like melted ice water into cracks on the floor when you’re feeling out of place for being the real you.

Trophy

When you love someone, you love them because they make you feel that you can be yourself, that you dont have to act and be someone else because the way you are is already enough for them and its their reason for ever loving you and keeping you in their hearts. They make you feel safe that they will never slip away from  your arms to the arms of others even when all seems to crumble down to the earth and with all your mistakes in life, they will be there to be by your side facing walls and barriers in life together as one. They make you feel that life is just a mere ease flow of water down a rough stream through rocks and pebbles, hills and mountains, rivers and seas. With smiles and comfort, advises and laughters, ears given to listen and hearts to understand is what makes that one person special to another. A heart given in to the worst part of a human heart is what melts, changed and mold it from a person so cold, so hard, so evil into someone other people could never thought that one person could become. And to realise that all it takes, is just a heart given to love and give warmth for the comfort of the icy heart.

When a love is given to that one single person which is special to his/her life, it is given whole and never to be taken lightly. It is given unconditionally and without a doubt it would be wasted. It is given to let down everything else in the past and put you first, it is given as a sign that its time to change from all childish fun and temptations in life for the sake of maturity, devotion and responsibility. People in love would go to the ends of the earth for the other special person, this maybe a cliche line to say, but have you ever been in love, so deeply in love that all you wanna do give up everything and be with that person the whole day, just lie in bed and talk about the future, forgetting about everything else thats been thrown to you by life in the worse way you could ever think of. Make memory of everything you love to do alone, with that single person so that he or she would one day know that no one else have done it with you because you want them to know how special they are to you in your life.

Some people these generation failed to see spouses as a person to love and care for, to improve ones self and to cherish one another, but instead, it stands as a thophy, a status and pride, it stands as a road for financial solution, for one self requirement of materials and satisfaction in life, it serves as a protection from mistakes and sole purpose for goals in life. Purchased happiness and glory is what we fail to see that it wont last for life, we kept searching for it, it will always be an urge to have and to need, it is our drug and our greed in life, it will cloud our vision of what is real in life not realising it is fantasy guided by wealth, pride and glory. It takes away reality by lifting us up high into the sky not realising what is really happening below us that is reality. From there we plant seeds of ego, selfishness, greed, rank and respect from others into ourselves. A trophy doesnt last long in another persons mind as there are many winning thophies out there ready to be won over, it all depends on what happens, what you do and what you say after you win the trophy. You could be all into getting it in the first place, training hard and focusing on it, but after you win it, it is kept in a shelf on the corner of your hall for show and you're out chasing after the next trophy in line.

Life Worth Living For

In life we fall, we strive harder, we work harder, we gave up our days and nights to sleepless workload given by our bosses just to put food on the table for our family or just ourselves. Some also go through heart wrecking moments that cannot be avoided, like those who have given up everything in life to achieve something that they really want in life, and after all that hard work it was taken away, or, it might have been given to you, but everything came crashing down because of external issues that doesnt even involve you or whatever you are doing or did in the past. Some people result to taking away their own life even before it was time, leaving behind loves ones. Now, isnt it the same situation as what you went through? your loved ones have hope to see you again no matter what the cost, same as you hoping to achieve what you want without any cost, but then you took your own life and your love ones couldnt see you again, same as someone took your hardwork away and you are not able to see it anymore.

We as humans sometimes fail to see those who really loved us, those who really needed us, and those who really cared for us. We neglect every happiness that was given to us freely, we become selfish and heartless, cold and blind to those out there. Quoting a phrase, "When one door closes, another opens" or "everything happens for a reason", is what i feel people should apply to their life. Have it ever occur to you that things didnt go your way because its not meant for you in a long term or things will not end well for you if you follow this path? some might believe that, some may not.

Let's take it this way, what if one day, you left home, the moment you step out of your house you accidentally stepped on a dog poop, you go back in the house to change your shoe, then your left home and missed the first bus which made you wait for the next, while waiting, you saw an old lady wanting to cross the road with her groceries in the hand, you then stood up, walk across and gave her a hand, the next bus came, there you are waiting in line, and the person infront of you doesnt have a change to pay the ticket, and you offer change, on the bus you met this girl who was sitting at the corner alone with eyes red as if she was crying before she board the bus, so you offer her a tissue and gave her smile, she smiled back, you reached the office and was scolded by your boss for being late, then you end up being moody and angry the whole day.

Not knowing, scolding is just a small thing, its not that you got fired or cost a million dollar in loss to your company, but because you were late, you made 3 stranger's day, if you didnt accidentally stepped on the dog's poop and you would have catch the first bus,  the old lady might have been crossing the road alone with her heavy grocery bags, the person out of change might have missed the opportunity of his life time for a job that could save he and his family's future, the girl who was sitting alone might have had a bad break up or received a bad news and was on her way to commit suicide. But because of you, you gave hope, you gave life and you put a smile on another's face. Because of you, people who have given up on life thinking that they are alone and no one is with them, they now know they are not alone and there are people out there who still cares for them.

Now, for a change of perspection, good things on your side and it's just this simple, you have been suffering with this company for years, struggling and working hard but you never got a raise, never got promoted and never appreciated, then one day, you got fired. You are left with nothing, thinking that this is it, this is the end of your life because everything that you have worked for, has now gone to waste and you are done with starting all over again from scratch, you give up on life. At this moment now, take the quotes i said just now and put it into the situation, change the mindset, you didnt give up, you never gave up, you take it as an opportunity to find a better job, you went on searching for weeks and months for a job that would take you in, one day you received a call from this company saying they would like to interview you. The day comes, you walked in the office and greeted the boss and here is where my topic comes into place. Remember the guy that you gave change too for the bus fare, it seems that it really was the opportunity of his life that he was rushing to board the bus, and he is where he is now because of one simple action you did and he never forget the person that gave a nickle for the bus fare that changed his life around, you were hired, as years pass by, you became one of his manager because of the skills you learn by striving and doing allot of research working with the past company, putting it into this company and making it grow, and also because of his trust towards your generosity for people that really needed help and friendship that both of you have developed easily because he feels grateful to you, and from there you gave hope to others in need.

Life is a continuous process of learning, there is never a time where you just stop learning because you already known enough, it is forever teaching, with ups and downs, we learn to improve, to grow strong, to be more matured, to be skillfull and learn new things. Sometimes failures doesnt mean the end of your life, it just means it is the end of your time to learn that specific skill and its time for you to move on and learn new things which you will need for that one specific job that is waiting for you at the end of your career road or life in the future.